25 May

Eight months in, and how is it going, this expat adventure?  The crumpets are great, I’ve got to say, and the jam is pretty damn good, too.  I’m still bipolar — this is wonderful/this is awful/wonderful/awful/wonderful/awful/wonderful — and I’m starting to hope that, eventually, those feelings will come in succession so quickly that I’ll find some balance by standing right there in the middle, where they flip.

Some days closed.  A bit shut down, emotionally. Keeping it together by keeping it bunched up inside.

Some days bursting open.  Curling with delight, dancing in the sunshine, throwing arms wide open.

Some days it just seems I’m stuck with lemons.  News from home that makes it hard to be away; transition pains that feel like battlefield amputations; another round of cooties from school; distracting home repair problems; the continuing exhaustion of always being out of place.  But then I remember:

I freaking LOVE lemons.  A little sugar, a little ice, and it’s sunshine in a glass.  It just takes … a little time, a little patience, and a little thirst.

I have so many travelling adventures to write about, I may never catch up.  I’m distracted by making something good out of all these lemons, but I’ll be back … it’s time to pucker up.


6 Responses to “Lemons”

  1. Zazzy May 25, 2012 at 6:24 pm #

    I have this wild desire to make limoncello. And I don’t really drink! But I hear it’s good in recipes. I’m looking forward to all those vicarious adventures and anything else you want to write.

    • Monique May 26, 2012 at 9:22 am #

      =) Hi Zazzy! A lemoncello sounds great right about now — the first really summery weekend we’ve had in England. I’m putting my lemons in some iced tea, today …

  2. unncle Jack May 25, 2012 at 7:44 pm #

    Just reading and thinking about a glass of cold lemonade makes me want to pucker up. Lovely!

    • Monique May 26, 2012 at 9:23 am #

      Hi Uncle Jack! Always glad to know you are checking in with us!

  3. haitiruth May 27, 2012 at 8:30 pm #

    Here’s to lemonade! I love reading about your adventures and I can completely relate to the bipolar emotions.

    • Monique May 28, 2012 at 6:33 pm #

      I hope it gets better eventually?? At least the lemonade is good…

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